Friday, December 31, 2010
Bye 2010!
This is just a short post to end the year with. I'm gonna miss 2010 very much. Many good things happened. Alhamdulillah, and i hope and wish that, more good things are out there for us in 2011 and years ahead. Ensyaallah. Millions thanks to everyone who had been wonderful to me all these years.
Yes, i have my new year's resolutions (the ones that i had for maal hijrah, come on, i celebrate that one especially). So, most importantly, this is my greatest resolution: I'm searching Him, i want to really know what i believe in. To be a better servant of Him. To be faithful, very faithful.
A religious girl i want to be,afraid of my God,loves my Prophet and proud of the religion i worship.
Anyway, I will try my best to achieve all these. Ensyaallah.
Till then!
Friday, October 29, 2010
Guide to a Better Life
Kadang kadang hidup rasa sukar tapi kena teruskan. bukan hidup awak ja, hidup saya pun cubaan tak henti berkunjung. So, in a way nak memotivasikan diri balik, kena ambil iktibar dari kisah orang lain. Selamat membaca ya
This is amazing, Randy Pausch 47 yrs old, a computer Sc. lecturer from Mellon University died of pancreatic cancer in 2008, but wrote a book ‘The last lecture” before then, one of the bestsellers in 2007. What a legacy to leave behind…
In a letter to his wife Jai and his children, Dylan, Logan, and Chloe, he wrote this beautiful "guide to a better life" for his wife and children to follow.
May you be blessed by his insight.
POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE
Personality:
1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more
14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Community:
15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something good to others
17. Forgive everyone for everything
18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19. Try to make at least three people smile each day
20. What other people think of you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23. GOD heals everything
24. Do the right things
25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27. The best is yet to come
28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.
While you practice all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with,
people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.
Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you.
Remember,
GOOD THINGS ARE FOR US TO SHARE.....!!!!!!
Credit to: Musafir di angin lalu aka blog budak baru bertunang (: Love u bro!
A dedication
When tomorrow is a new day for you, i hope it will be a bright and happy day.
Ill be here as always.
Ill be here as always.
Saturday, September 04, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Lelaki kacak peneman si mati
Rasulullah SAW bersabda: 'Bila seseorang lelaki itu mati dan saudaranya sibuk dengan pengebumiannya, berdiri lelaki yang betul-betul kacak di bahagian kepalanya. Bila mayatnya dikapan, lelaki itu berada di antara kain kapan dan si mati.
Selepas pengebumian, semua orang pulang ke rumah, 2 malaikat Mungkar dan Nakir, datang dalam kubur dan cuba memisahkan lelaki kacak ini supaya mereka boleh menyoal lelaki yang telah meninggal itu seorang diri mengenai ketaatannya kepada Allah.
Tapi lelaki kacak itu berkata,Dia adalah temanku, dia adalah kawanku. Aku takkan meninggalkannya seorang diri walau apa pun. Jika kamu ditetapkan untuk menyoal, lakukanlah tugasmu. Aku tidak boleh meninggalkannya sehingga aku dapati dia dimasukkan ke dalam Syurga.'
Selepas itu dia berpaling pada temannya yang meninggal dan berkata,'Aku adalah Al-Quran, yang mana kamu membacanya, kadang-kadang dengan suara yang nyaring dan kadang-kadang dengan suara yang perlahan. Jangan bimbang. Selepas soal siasat dari Mungkar dan Nakir, kamu tidak akan bersedih.'Selepas soal siasat selesai, lelaki kacak mengatur untuknya daripada Al-Mala'ul A'laa (malaikat dalam Syurga) tempat tidur dari sutera yang dipenuhi bauan kesturi
Rasulullah (Sallallahu alaihi wasallam) bersabda :'Di hari pengadilan, di hadapan Allah, tiada syafaat yang lebih baik darjatnya daripada Quran, mahupun dari nabi atau malaikat.'
Selepas pengebumian, semua orang pulang ke rumah, 2 malaikat Mungkar dan Nakir, datang dalam kubur dan cuba memisahkan lelaki kacak ini supaya mereka boleh menyoal lelaki yang telah meninggal itu seorang diri mengenai ketaatannya kepada Allah.
Tapi lelaki kacak itu berkata,Dia adalah temanku, dia adalah kawanku. Aku takkan meninggalkannya seorang diri walau apa pun. Jika kamu ditetapkan untuk menyoal, lakukanlah tugasmu. Aku tidak boleh meninggalkannya sehingga aku dapati dia dimasukkan ke dalam Syurga.'
Selepas itu dia berpaling pada temannya yang meninggal dan berkata,'Aku adalah Al-Quran, yang mana kamu membacanya, kadang-kadang dengan suara yang nyaring dan kadang-kadang dengan suara yang perlahan. Jangan bimbang. Selepas soal siasat dari Mungkar dan Nakir, kamu tidak akan bersedih.'Selepas soal siasat selesai, lelaki kacak mengatur untuknya daripada Al-Mala'ul A'laa (malaikat dalam Syurga) tempat tidur dari sutera yang dipenuhi bauan kesturi
Rasulullah (Sallallahu alaihi wasallam) bersabda :'Di hari pengadilan, di hadapan Allah, tiada syafaat yang lebih baik darjatnya daripada Quran, mahupun dari nabi atau malaikat.'
Change as a MATTER of WANT
In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and Most Merciful. Good Morning!
I remembered asking myself once or twice when i was few years younger, what would happen if i were to bump people who had made my life miserable and i hated the most now (back at that time) in 3-10 years time? Hurm...it's a tough question though because i'm a hard-headed girl. Would i still have anger and hatred for that person in my heart? and yeah, do i view the person the same way i did today? or maybe would i assume that the person has changed somewhat and thus deserves to be treated kindly just like any other person whom i love as friends?
in regard to this matter, yes, i do have some people in my mind.
Ive only discovered the answer to those questions(hope this is the one!) when it really happened last year. And i realise that the hatred had slowly gone, the assumption that the person is 'bad' is still there but it has disappeared as soon as i talked to the person. I should say, the talking heals the pain and that i have forgiven the person from the beginning. Therefore, i ended up treating that person like an old friend whom i've not met for a life long time.
I think, i was able to feel and react that way only because i'd successfully put myself in that person's shoes.
"sometimes u make silly mistakes in your life when you're younger and hope that the other person you hurt or embarrassed would've forgiven you"
Same goes with me, i hope i made silly mistakes and i know they did hurt people and secretly i hope that the person will forgive me and we can be friends again. I've also learnt that change is possible to anyone, it is not a matter of whether the person CAN change for the better or not but it is a more of about whether YOU WANT to change or not. In this case, i choose to CHANGE.
I remember a quote from a book i've read, it's a nice quote though,
"treat everyone equally and forgive people, not because they are nice but YOU ARE"
Being Muslims, we are always thought to assume positives in others and to not to be easily judgmental. Judging is God's authority, not me, not others. Our Prophet never jumped into conclusion when it comes to judging others and he is the best example for us all to follow. EnsyaAllah (:
So as a reminder about judgment, mind to worry about ourselves being judged in front of the AlMighty on Judgement Day.
Thus, love more & judge less,
Ainne
I remembered asking myself once or twice when i was few years younger, what would happen if i were to bump people who had made my life miserable and i hated the most now (back at that time) in 3-10 years time? Hurm...it's a tough question though because i'm a hard-headed girl. Would i still have anger and hatred for that person in my heart? and yeah, do i view the person the same way i did today? or maybe would i assume that the person has changed somewhat and thus deserves to be treated kindly just like any other person whom i love as friends?
in regard to this matter, yes, i do have some people in my mind.
Ive only discovered the answer to those questions(hope this is the one!) when it really happened last year. And i realise that the hatred had slowly gone, the assumption that the person is 'bad' is still there but it has disappeared as soon as i talked to the person. I should say, the talking heals the pain and that i have forgiven the person from the beginning. Therefore, i ended up treating that person like an old friend whom i've not met for a life long time.
I think, i was able to feel and react that way only because i'd successfully put myself in that person's shoes.
"sometimes u make silly mistakes in your life when you're younger and hope that the other person you hurt or embarrassed would've forgiven you"
Same goes with me, i hope i made silly mistakes and i know they did hurt people and secretly i hope that the person will forgive me and we can be friends again. I've also learnt that change is possible to anyone, it is not a matter of whether the person CAN change for the better or not but it is a more of about whether YOU WANT to change or not. In this case, i choose to CHANGE.
I remember a quote from a book i've read, it's a nice quote though,
"treat everyone equally and forgive people, not because they are nice but YOU ARE"
Being Muslims, we are always thought to assume positives in others and to not to be easily judgmental. Judging is God's authority, not me, not others. Our Prophet never jumped into conclusion when it comes to judging others and he is the best example for us all to follow. EnsyaAllah (:
So as a reminder about judgment, mind to worry about ourselves being judged in front of the AlMighty on Judgement Day.
Thus, love more & judge less,
Ainne
Friday, August 20, 2010
Ohh Life
Aloha! oh this is just a bit updates from me (:
I've just finish exams few days ago, so ill be writing and updating my blog from time to time during the holidays, promise myself as well as promise some of you who are asking for updates from me.
Firstly, Ramadan Al-mubarak! happy fasting everyone (:
Secondly, its Ramadan and yeah, i'm here stuck in Gold coast, not going back to malaysia. nak raya di perantauan.
Thirdly, for God-sake, i'm homesick! Ma and Abah,my lovely and gorgeous siblings, i love you and miss you so MUCHHH.
Fourthly, still thinking. haha
ill update my readings, notes, stories etc,,,later!
Bye (:
LOvesss
I've just finish exams few days ago, so ill be writing and updating my blog from time to time during the holidays, promise myself as well as promise some of you who are asking for updates from me.
Firstly, Ramadan Al-mubarak! happy fasting everyone (:
Secondly, its Ramadan and yeah, i'm here stuck in Gold coast, not going back to malaysia. nak raya di perantauan.
Thirdly, for God-sake, i'm homesick! Ma and Abah,my lovely and gorgeous siblings, i love you and miss you so MUCHHH.
Fourthly, still thinking. haha
ill update my readings, notes, stories etc,,,later!
Bye (:
LOvesss
Saturday, July 03, 2010
Thanks for the lesson
Aloha my blog and my blog's followers. Its been sometime i have not update myself here.
Things went well, bad, happy and sad these few weeks.
I learnt to understand many things which i did not get able to learn before. Its a life lesson. Being a mature girl and being a person.
Interest
Love
Study
Family
Heart
God
Friends
All these stuffs. It's a great opportunity to face with such difficulties and I thank God for giving me the chances. Alhamdulillah
For someone there, Ill be waiting for you. EnsyaAllah
For God, I thank you and I promise myself to always remember you in every single breath i take.
Things went well, bad, happy and sad these few weeks.
I learnt to understand many things which i did not get able to learn before. Its a life lesson. Being a mature girl and being a person.
Interest
Love
Study
Family
Heart
God
Friends
All these stuffs. It's a great opportunity to face with such difficulties and I thank God for giving me the chances. Alhamdulillah
For someone there, Ill be waiting for you. EnsyaAllah
For God, I thank you and I promise myself to always remember you in every single breath i take.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Massive head-ache and tired-ness
Today.
It seems.
I've wasted every second.
of my life.
or i should call it.
every second of my study period.
Being a someone.
in an association.
Though my heart says.
yes i do love It.
But rationality and brain say.
yes you are putting TOO much attention on It.
But then,
spending Time with friends.
doing THESE stuffs,
is SO MUCH fun.
and i love this SHIT so much.
Next week, brain will start working on
CRIM A > TORT > OBLIGATION.
Gosh, i'm meant for CRIM A
(:::::
Daaa....
It seems.
I've wasted every second.
of my life.
or i should call it.
every second of my study period.
Being a someone.
in an association.
Though my heart says.
yes i do love It.
But rationality and brain say.
yes you are putting TOO much attention on It.
But then,
spending Time with friends.
doing THESE stuffs,
is SO MUCH fun.
and i love this SHIT so much.
Next week, brain will start working on
CRIM A > TORT > OBLIGATION.
Gosh, i'm meant for CRIM A
(:::::
Daaa....
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Song for the soul
As i was listening to some songs just now,i listened to the Chaya Hati by Opick.I've been listening to it for quite sometime since i transferred the file into my phone. It's a song for my soul and it's a song for your souls too (:
p/s things are getting more and more difficult and challenging from day to day. i'm learning how to be mature and hope i can become one.
Allah engkau dekat penuh kasih sayang
Takkan pernah engkau biarkan hamba-Mu menangis
Karna kemurahan-Mu
Karna kasih sayang-Mu
Hanya bila diri-Mu
Ingin nyatakan cinta
Pada jiwa yang rela dia kekasih-Mu
Kau selalu terjaga yang memberi segala
Reff:
Allah Rahman Allah Rahim
Allahu Ya Ghafar Ya Nurul Qolbi
Allah Rohman Allah Rahim
Allahu Ya Ghafar Ya Nurul Qolbi
Di setiap nafas di segala waktu
Semua bersujud memuji memuja asma-Mu
Kau yang selalu terjaga yang memberi segala
p/s things are getting more and more difficult and challenging from day to day. i'm learning how to be mature and hope i can become one.
Allah engkau dekat penuh kasih sayang
Takkan pernah engkau biarkan hamba-Mu menangis
Karna kemurahan-Mu
Karna kasih sayang-Mu
Hanya bila diri-Mu
Ingin nyatakan cinta
Pada jiwa yang rela dia kekasih-Mu
Kau selalu terjaga yang memberi segala
Reff:
Allah Rahman Allah Rahim
Allahu Ya Ghafar Ya Nurul Qolbi
Allah Rohman Allah Rahim
Allahu Ya Ghafar Ya Nurul Qolbi
Di setiap nafas di segala waktu
Semua bersujud memuji memuja asma-Mu
Kau yang selalu terjaga yang memberi segala
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
Way too much & pretty weird thing
Aloha! this is just a bit update for the day (thursday 27 Mei 2010)
Had a contemporary issue tute this morning ~.~ talked about the Hayek principle. which one is better; Liberalism or Conservatism. but i said we take BOTH! and again, talk about different values existed in the world (it can sometimes co-exist in many societies)...lets take an example, stated in most religions 'treat people nicely and with respect' or 'treat people the way you want to be treated'...
This is one of the values that each one of us share regardless of our religions or races.
and we did talked about Hijab in islamic countries and why cant people wear bikini in the muslim countries ... (which later they sum up that u'll be chased out of the countries if u wear Bikinis!) Well, this is not a conclusion O people! This is accusation! Then, i say, think rationally, when u come to the muslim countries, u dont wear bikinis or watsoever there because you have to respect their values, it's not that they will kill you or somethg.Glad they said Yes.. fuhh! well this is exactly not a good explanation. Think critically ain!
Another thing, well i think being a conservative radical country is the best! keeping existed values and morality among the people and cautiously accept a change are very appealing to me. meaning to say, in my opinion, this is the best way to achieve a good government and maintain harmony in a country. Take examples such as Uk, Australia or even Malaysia itself. We do embrace changes, however cautiously, for a positive progression of the people and the country! XD
p/s bad english used for this post due to undue influences from bed and it looks really appealing too... zzz
bye !
Had a contemporary issue tute this morning ~.~ talked about the Hayek principle. which one is better; Liberalism or Conservatism. but i said we take BOTH! and again, talk about different values existed in the world (it can sometimes co-exist in many societies)...lets take an example, stated in most religions 'treat people nicely and with respect' or 'treat people the way you want to be treated'...
This is one of the values that each one of us share regardless of our religions or races.
and we did talked about Hijab in islamic countries and why cant people wear bikini in the muslim countries ... (which later they sum up that u'll be chased out of the countries if u wear Bikinis!) Well, this is not a conclusion O people! This is accusation! Then, i say, think rationally, when u come to the muslim countries, u dont wear bikinis or watsoever there because you have to respect their values, it's not that they will kill you or somethg.Glad they said Yes.. fuhh! well this is exactly not a good explanation. Think critically ain!
Another thing, well i think being a conservative radical country is the best! keeping existed values and morality among the people and cautiously accept a change are very appealing to me. meaning to say, in my opinion, this is the best way to achieve a good government and maintain harmony in a country. Take examples such as Uk, Australia or even Malaysia itself. We do embrace changes, however cautiously, for a positive progression of the people and the country! XD
p/s bad english used for this post due to undue influences from bed and it looks really appealing too... zzz
bye !
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Only For "Dreamers whose Aspirations are discouraged by Reality."
IF FROM THE TITLE YOU THINK THIS IS A CHILDISH WHINING, YOU CAN CHOOSE NOT TO READ. THANK YOU.
If you happen to have this instinct, you will realize that nobody can fake in front of you and you can see through things that not everyone can see.
The good about it is you always have ideas that not everyone can conceive, which is of great help to realize your dreams. Creativity is your greatest asset, if there is someone out there who question you, and laugh at you because of your dreams, do not get disheartened. Be confident. Follow your own way.
However, bear in mind that you will not be always at the advantaged position, because unethical opportunists stand in your way. Do learn to deal with this type of people. It's not wrong to take necessary precautions against such people, but with one rule: As long as no harm is caused to anybody.
And if you happen to be seen as a nobody although you know you are somebody, do not feel discouraged. You are not seen as somebody because you are humble and do not like to show off. Remember, it is not wrong to speak up and show your skill as long as you do not belittle others. And beware of people who do that because if you do not, you will find yourself being unfairly portrayed.
Sometimes people may find you weird or strange. Let me tell you this. You are not weird. People find you weird because they simply do not understand you. It's not their fault for not being able to understand you. And it's not your fault either. You are just not ordinary.
This note was actually wrote by Ong Wei Jie, a friend of mine. He will always be my english tutor, like forever!
Wei Jie, i love all your words!!! must confess this =)
If you happen to have this instinct, you will realize that nobody can fake in front of you and you can see through things that not everyone can see.
The good about it is you always have ideas that not everyone can conceive, which is of great help to realize your dreams. Creativity is your greatest asset, if there is someone out there who question you, and laugh at you because of your dreams, do not get disheartened. Be confident. Follow your own way.
However, bear in mind that you will not be always at the advantaged position, because unethical opportunists stand in your way. Do learn to deal with this type of people. It's not wrong to take necessary precautions against such people, but with one rule: As long as no harm is caused to anybody.
And if you happen to be seen as a nobody although you know you are somebody, do not feel discouraged. You are not seen as somebody because you are humble and do not like to show off. Remember, it is not wrong to speak up and show your skill as long as you do not belittle others. And beware of people who do that because if you do not, you will find yourself being unfairly portrayed.
Sometimes people may find you weird or strange. Let me tell you this. You are not weird. People find you weird because they simply do not understand you. It's not their fault for not being able to understand you. And it's not your fault either. You are just not ordinary.
This note was actually wrote by Ong Wei Jie, a friend of mine. He will always be my english tutor, like forever!
Wei Jie, i love all your words!!! must confess this =)
Friday, May 21, 2010
Song for the soul
InsyaAllah... for those who are seeking for something or somewhat lost in his journey, or even waiting for something, or thinking and wishing for good thing to happen in his life, insyaAllah..it will come to you later either the way u want it to be or the way you are not expecting, as Allah(swt) says “(such is) the promise of Allah, never does Allah fail in His promise” [Al Qur’an 39:20] and in another verse “The promise of Allah is true, and He is Exalted in Power, Wise.” [Al Qur’an 31:9]
Self preparations O yeah!
Aloha my lovely blog, sorry i've left you to rot, I was busy and working hardly.
...and hardly working =) ...haha
Hye again people, let's get started. Last Sunday at about 7 in the morning, my AirAsia X plane landed smoothly in Gold Coast. Well, i dont think i should describe how 'comfortable' i was in the plane since i'm paying for a low fare plane ticket (there goes with the services, foods, facilities etc...i'm being ungrateful here lol) But overall, thank God i arrived here safely to start a new chapter of life as a student and a learner.
Ever since i'm living here in Gold Coast, i have always think that Gold Coast is a nice place to live or even yes, to visit. It has almost everything here. The Sun, the coldness and the beauty of nature.
So, lectures started in the next day, Monday with the COntemporary issue in Law and SOciety lecture in the morning, Tuesday i was free since no tutorials scheduled in the first week, Wednesday i had 1 lecture and Thursdays, i had 2 lectures and 1 tute.
Glad to say, i am happy to be in those lectures and tute because i love the lecturers and the stuffs we will have to study later in these courses.
I bought 3 textbooks for 2 subjects and tomorrow, will hardly trying to find another one for the Law of Obligation.
Don't worry i have not started to read these books thoroughly because i do not really have the time. But don't get me started cause i really like this shit X) Say good luck to me reading it!
Tortious Liability with Jo. Heard Jo is a strict marker. Glad i'm not in your class Jo. But i'm with Richard and i know him very well and he's a strict marker also so i bet i could not run away from these kinda people XD
CRIM A with Suzie. Suzie please be nice to me.. like really!
I also bought notebook for writing things i heard or discussed in tutes.
Well that is some sort of what happened this week and will keep in touch with you in the coming weeks...i Hope so coz i am freaking busy XD
Orait, that's all for this post. More to come. Thanks. Bye
...and hardly working =) ...haha
Hye again people, let's get started. Last Sunday at about 7 in the morning, my AirAsia X plane landed smoothly in Gold Coast. Well, i dont think i should describe how 'comfortable' i was in the plane since i'm paying for a low fare plane ticket (there goes with the services, foods, facilities etc...i'm being ungrateful here lol) But overall, thank God i arrived here safely to start a new chapter of life as a student and a learner.
Ever since i'm living here in Gold Coast, i have always think that Gold Coast is a nice place to live or even yes, to visit. It has almost everything here. The Sun, the coldness and the beauty of nature.
So, lectures started in the next day, Monday with the COntemporary issue in Law and SOciety lecture in the morning, Tuesday i was free since no tutorials scheduled in the first week, Wednesday i had 1 lecture and Thursdays, i had 2 lectures and 1 tute.
Glad to say, i am happy to be in those lectures and tute because i love the lecturers and the stuffs we will have to study later in these courses.
I bought 3 textbooks for 2 subjects and tomorrow, will hardly trying to find another one for the Law of Obligation.
Don't worry i have not started to read these books thoroughly because i do not really have the time. But don't get me started cause i really like this shit X) Say good luck to me reading it!
Tortious Liability with Jo. Heard Jo is a strict marker. Glad i'm not in your class Jo. But i'm with Richard and i know him very well and he's a strict marker also so i bet i could not run away from these kinda people XD
CRIM A with Suzie. Suzie please be nice to me.. like really!
I also bought notebook for writing things i heard or discussed in tutes.
Well that is some sort of what happened this week and will keep in touch with you in the coming weeks...i Hope so coz i am freaking busy XD
Orait, that's all for this post. More to come. Thanks. Bye
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
Happy mother's day, mom!
Happy mother's day mom! Life would not be perfect and as nice and comfortable like i have now if i do not have u around... I'm very happy to see u smiling and laughing throughout the days i'm in malaysia. Though the time spent in Malaysia was meant to be a holiday but i ended up 'fulfilling' my responsibility to my family. hahah isn't that great! nah, i don't mind and most importantly, i redha!
yah, i attached some photos for the mother's day celebration with my mum and family.
Ijah came up with her great great genius plan to buy flowers for my mum! so, i just bought it =)))))
Monday, May 03, 2010
Quran at your fingertips
I was reading my friend's blog lately and i found some sites which we can use to download information. For example, there's this one link to download Quran with english translation. It is provided with Tajwid as a guide (we could also download it), and the reading of the Quran itself.
It really useful if we needed guide to learn Quran or to strengthen our reading. And most important, to make sure Quran is always with us just like your Notebook! So, u have no reason from not reading Quran my dear! =)
Screen shot
Plus, as i said u can download the Tajwid Quran and more at
http://quranflash.com/en/download/index.html
It really useful if we needed guide to learn Quran or to strengthen our reading. And most important, to make sure Quran is always with us just like your Notebook! So, u have no reason from not reading Quran my dear! =)
Screen shot
Plus, as i said u can download the Tajwid Quran and more at
http://quranflash.com/en/download/index.html
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Out to Wetex Parade
Hye assalamualaikum ^_^
i seriously dont have tyme to write a post yesterday.
I went out with two friends from my secondary school. They are Shera Rahim and Shamilah Adami. Such a nice friend they are! OMG! i miss them so much!
anyway, i attached a photo here ^_^
and another thing that makes me so happy these two days was that, Barisan Nasional won the by-election held in Hulu Selangor. Agree with you dad, we could win more if our candidate was a malay... but Mr. Kamal, nice job! GReat!
Monday, April 26, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
A lil' consideration makes a difference
Currently i'm reading a motivational book called Life is an Open Secret by Zabrina A. Bakar. Its more to learning good values and the way we should lead our life in Islam. It covers not only from Islamic perspectives represented by Islamic scholars, but with many opinions from other religions.
Let me share one poem written by a lil' girl in the Recipe of Life,
Fold two hands together, and express a dash of sorrow
Marinate it overnight, and work on it tomorrow
Chop one grudge in tiny pieces, add several cups of love
Dredge with a large sized milk, mix with the ingredients above.
Dissolve the hate within you, by doing a good deed
Cut it and help your friend, if he/she should be in need
Stir in laughter, love and kindness, from the heart it has to come
Toss with genuine forgiveness, and give your friends some!
The amount of people served, will depend on you
It can serve the whole world, if you really want it to!
It is a beautiful poem and seriously i cant create such a good poem myself.
well this sort of what i want to write for today
see ya later
bye =)
I'm in malaysia by the way!
Let me share one poem written by a lil' girl in the Recipe of Life,
Fold two hands together, and express a dash of sorrow
Marinate it overnight, and work on it tomorrow
Chop one grudge in tiny pieces, add several cups of love
Dredge with a large sized milk, mix with the ingredients above.
Dissolve the hate within you, by doing a good deed
Cut it and help your friend, if he/she should be in need
Stir in laughter, love and kindness, from the heart it has to come
Toss with genuine forgiveness, and give your friends some!
The amount of people served, will depend on you
It can serve the whole world, if you really want it to!
It is a beautiful poem and seriously i cant create such a good poem myself.
well this sort of what i want to write for today
see ya later
bye =)
I'm in malaysia by the way!
Monday, April 19, 2010
a boring day i would say
haiz...feel so bored nowadays, though i'm doing my studies for the examinations but seems like i'm missing something..
anyway, lets forget about the boringness, lets talk about communication skills test just now..:D
Questions were not really hard just now. (happy)
basically, i could answer those questions, i already studied their chapters on.. but to those i did not really studied, i'm sorry i just did not know how to answer all of you...lol
i did the test like only for 1 hour and 15 minutes so i went out of the hall earlier..
so fuh! this is my second last paper for the semester, one more paper to go and then I'm done!
Australian legal system, bring it on!
bye :)
anyway, lets forget about the boringness, lets talk about communication skills test just now..:D
Questions were not really hard just now. (happy)
basically, i could answer those questions, i already studied their chapters on.. but to those i did not really studied, i'm sorry i just did not know how to answer all of you...lol
i did the test like only for 1 hour and 15 minutes so i went out of the hall earlier..
so fuh! this is my second last paper for the semester, one more paper to go and then I'm done!
Australian legal system, bring it on!
bye :)
Saturday, April 17, 2010
contract DONE
contract done, so now i only left with ALS and COMm Skills..
oH Gosh.. these 2 subjects really frightening me... especially ALS...i just dont know what to write..
okayh! here is my plan for tomoro and the coming days:
TOmoro morning: read the case
Discuss with friends about it
Discuss with other friends about it to check my understanding
for comm skills, i would like to attempt to write the template itself, well probably this will give some sort of ideas on what to write on MOnday.
WEll well well, i just could not stand anymore, I WANT TO GO BACK TO MALAYSIA hahha
i MISS MY FAMILY SO MUCH
and i wanna run away from all those CRAZY stuffss....
till here bye ;)
oH Gosh.. these 2 subjects really frightening me... especially ALS...i just dont know what to write..
okayh! here is my plan for tomoro and the coming days:
TOmoro morning: read the case
Discuss with friends about it
Discuss with other friends about it to check my understanding
for comm skills, i would like to attempt to write the template itself, well probably this will give some sort of ideas on what to write on MOnday.
WEll well well, i just could not stand anymore, I WANT TO GO BACK TO MALAYSIA hahha
i MISS MY FAMILY SO MUCH
and i wanna run away from all those CRAZY stuffss....
till here bye ;)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Shopping!
yesterday i went shopping with atiqah at Harbour town, the shopping adventure.
seems like so adventurous and it is Reallly Adventurous.
i bought souvenirs for my family in Malaysia ;)
eh have i told you? i"m going back to malaysia next week friday.... feel so excited. this is the best feeling ever!
Despite feeling excited for the exams, starting this friday, 1 thg that make me happy most is this one! ;)
mom and dad, i really miss u.
um,.. anyway, i spent about 300 dollars for all.
it was quite expensive and i ended up having no money and now i'm BROKE!
Help is really needed! but i'm happy :)
this is the exam schedule:
Friday 16/4/10 Contract law
MOnday 19/4/10 Comm skills
Thursday 22/4/10 Legal system
WIsh me luck! thanks and BYe!'
I'm going to college now...
AInn... STudy !
salam
seems like so adventurous and it is Reallly Adventurous.
i bought souvenirs for my family in Malaysia ;)
eh have i told you? i"m going back to malaysia next week friday.... feel so excited. this is the best feeling ever!
Despite feeling excited for the exams, starting this friday, 1 thg that make me happy most is this one! ;)
mom and dad, i really miss u.
um,.. anyway, i spent about 300 dollars for all.
it was quite expensive and i ended up having no money and now i'm BROKE!
Help is really needed! but i'm happy :)
this is the exam schedule:
Friday 16/4/10 Contract law
MOnday 19/4/10 Comm skills
Thursday 22/4/10 Legal system
WIsh me luck! thanks and BYe!'
I'm going to college now...
AInn... STudy !
salam
Friday, April 09, 2010
Scared!
Oh sorry i can really post anythg rite now, coz exams coming next week, have to study and i'm a slow learner. lol
bye!
wish me luck ;)
bye!
wish me luck ;)
Thursday, April 01, 2010
Easter Break = no holiday ;)
Easter break = no holidays = study haha ;) but i'm happy
i'm happy because even if i dont celebrate easter, i'm still having its holidays..
I am glad because the Christian still enjoying their Easter, showing that they are still appreciating their religion and this is good because, i believe that religion guide someone to be a good person..
Well lets look back the history behind easter, i'm so curious about it ...
Based on the Australian govt website:
"on good Friday, their Jesus Christ was executed by crucification. The body was kept under supervision and was taking care of. However, on Sunday, they found out that they lost the body. So they assumed that God had raised their the Jesus from the dead"
so tat sort of answering my curiousity.
well for me, i respect their believe and i appreciate my faith to the Almighty. My religion do not contain matters which minds cannot accept or illogical. Every single things is answered in the Quran. Alhamdulillah, even Allah beloved messenger died in a respectful and acceptable way, as a normal human. Alhamdulillah, i believe.
Till then, bye ...
Opps..assalamualaikum...
i'm happy because even if i dont celebrate easter, i'm still having its holidays..
I am glad because the Christian still enjoying their Easter, showing that they are still appreciating their religion and this is good because, i believe that religion guide someone to be a good person..
Well lets look back the history behind easter, i'm so curious about it ...
Based on the Australian govt website:
"on good Friday, their Jesus Christ was executed by crucification. The body was kept under supervision and was taking care of. However, on Sunday, they found out that they lost the body. So they assumed that God had raised their the Jesus from the dead"
so tat sort of answering my curiousity.
well for me, i respect their believe and i appreciate my faith to the Almighty. My religion do not contain matters which minds cannot accept or illogical. Every single things is answered in the Quran. Alhamdulillah, even Allah beloved messenger died in a respectful and acceptable way, as a normal human. Alhamdulillah, i believe.
Till then, bye ...
Opps..assalamualaikum...
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
What a small circle of Friends
I was just looking around on facebook. I realised that many of my friends actually are the friends of my other friends. Even they are friends to friends who i have never expect they know each other. and when I saw my friends' friends, again, some of them are friends to some other friends. hahah is not that funny? it's like we actually know all Malaysians and actually are so much connected.
we can make friend anywhere and anytime, that's the thing, therefore, the possibility of being a friend of a friend is not impossible ;)
we can make friend anywhere and anytime, that's the thing, therefore, the possibility of being a friend of a friend is not impossible ;)
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Fireflies by Owl City
You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A fox trot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball that's just hanging by a thread
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep
To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seems
Monday, March 29, 2010
A comment do make a difference.
I read this comment from Chedet posted by Mapax..
its a good comment.. it's simple but strong
it went like this
"Dear Tun,
1. When I was little, I used to make mistakes all the time, and my mother would give me a lecture. I would point out that someone else made the same mistake, and my mother would say this:
"I'm scolding you because you are my son, not them!"
2. In this case, the sad thing about it is that instead of trying to correct and learn from our mistakes, we justify ourselves by pointing out the mistake of others!
3. How are we to improve if we keep on doing this? Mistakes are acceptable as long as we learn from it! That is the natural process of acquiring knowledge and growing up.
4. I am sure a good number of people do not care about how contracts are given. The only reason that is an issue is because we have bridges on the verge of falling down!
5. And don’t take this the wrong way, the only reason for posting this is because I am a Malaysian, not an American or a Britain."
Are not you feel anything? ;)
Bye
its a good comment.. it's simple but strong
it went like this
"Dear Tun,
1. When I was little, I used to make mistakes all the time, and my mother would give me a lecture. I would point out that someone else made the same mistake, and my mother would say this:
"I'm scolding you because you are my son, not them!"
2. In this case, the sad thing about it is that instead of trying to correct and learn from our mistakes, we justify ourselves by pointing out the mistake of others!
3. How are we to improve if we keep on doing this? Mistakes are acceptable as long as we learn from it! That is the natural process of acquiring knowledge and growing up.
4. I am sure a good number of people do not care about how contracts are given. The only reason that is an issue is because we have bridges on the verge of falling down!
5. And don’t take this the wrong way, the only reason for posting this is because I am a Malaysian, not an American or a Britain."
Are not you feel anything? ;)
Bye
Sunday, March 28, 2010
A reflection
Good nite ;) Assalamualaikum
Just now, suddenly, the memory when i first left my family came to my mind again. Everytime i think about this, this small heart feel very sad. but the sadness does not make me feel even sadder, but more stronger. oh God, how i miss my family so much.
I never leave my family for such a long time before this, and now its almost 3 months already. I wonder from which part of my heart i saves the strength and I know that You lend me the strength. In KLIA that day, the last sight i had before i entered the plane will always stay in my mind. Forever. (oh.. tears falling from my eyes)
Let me just share some moments which the camera can catch...
For u there, i know someday u'll be in the same situation like i had.
be strong and cry when u need to.
bye assalamualaikum ;)
I miss home
Yesterday i am very happy because there is this one Malaysian man fetched us to Aldi supermarket. His name is Anwardeen (i will talk more about him in a later post).
I went there with my friends Atiqa and Amira. It was such a nice time to spend together ;) The purpose we went there was to do a lil' bit shopping in the Asian Groceries. but seriously, since its a chinese grocery shop, as chinese from China, i am always have something in my mind says 'hey! be careful of their products' i guess u know why if u are somewhat listened to the news. But that doesnt mean i am not doing shopping there lol.
But as i was walking and looking around for things to buy, i realised how i miss my family so much, how i miss HOME. doing groceries with mom, dad and my younger sisters and brother was really fun! Every time we went shopping mom and dad will buy something for us such as ice cream etc.. we did not overspent but just enough for my big family ;)
To mom and dad, i Love you so much, and i Miss you a lot. God bless you for raising such a naughty daughter like me and i'm sorry because i have to study oversea.
To my sisters and brothers, i miss u guys so much and i love u guys a lot. Akak ain will return Home when kak ain achieved success.. U guys have to study hard and smart and make our beloved super cute parents proud of us!
To my brother abg Faiz, only God knows how i love u, please return HOme when u are ready and may God saves you from bad things, really
To my sister Huda, i hope you will return Home, though you are Home, when you realise that life is not just about that. Everybody miss you.
To my brother abg In, may God gives you the best Jodoh and u'll live happily ever after.
Ameen Ya Rabbal A'lamin..
I dedicated the song Home by Michael Buble for every one of you in Home ;)
Friday, March 26, 2010
Professional Silly Girl
Hye =)
about 2 weeks ago, i had some conversations with my brother. (probably later you will realise that i talk about my brother a lot. i'm very close to him rather than my sis)..
i talked to him about my life as being a law student. i'm taking 4 subjects (contract, als, communications and reasoning skills)
well.. for law subjects, i have to memorize and read many case laws and statutes. last nite, as i was a case(which malaysian is one of the parties), its called Teoh's case. i guess law students should know about the case, its a very long case and i get tired reading it. It just hate the language the judges used in the case. It is very complicated and boring language...like a traditional and old-fashioned way of writing.
the function of law is to ensure social cohesion among the people in which the laws upheld and to ensure positive progression of the people.
that is why i wonder why are the people backdays used such way of writing to write rules and regulations. Rules and regulations should be understandable so that people can follow them exactly like the way they are written. Is it too hard to write simple things to avoid contradictions and misunderstanding?
well, i guess this question is to be asked to the judges and whoever, sitting on the bench who decided the matter.
luckily, things are getting better and writing is made easier by simple and objective words and writing styles. I'm glad and thank God for this. It makes my study even much much convenient.
Also, people can NOW understand the laws ;)
Till then, bye ;)
about 2 weeks ago, i had some conversations with my brother. (probably later you will realise that i talk about my brother a lot. i'm very close to him rather than my sis)..
i talked to him about my life as being a law student. i'm taking 4 subjects (contract, als, communications and reasoning skills)
well.. for law subjects, i have to memorize and read many case laws and statutes. last nite, as i was a case(which malaysian is one of the parties), its called Teoh's case. i guess law students should know about the case, its a very long case and i get tired reading it. It just hate the language the judges used in the case. It is very complicated and boring language...like a traditional and old-fashioned way of writing.
the function of law is to ensure social cohesion among the people in which the laws upheld and to ensure positive progression of the people.
that is why i wonder why are the people backdays used such way of writing to write rules and regulations. Rules and regulations should be understandable so that people can follow them exactly like the way they are written. Is it too hard to write simple things to avoid contradictions and misunderstanding?
well, i guess this question is to be asked to the judges and whoever, sitting on the bench who decided the matter.
luckily, things are getting better and writing is made easier by simple and objective words and writing styles. I'm glad and thank God for this. It makes my study even much much convenient.
Also, people can NOW understand the laws ;)
Till then, bye ;)
Thoughts
As i was reading my brother's blog, i found this article. An article which my tears falls and i learnt so many things from it. In this condition(last nite and this morning, i would say, i'm feel down), it heals me and it discovers my deep heart. InsyaAllah
Thanks abg in ;)
Beauty And The East - How Sara Bokker Found Islam
By Sara Bokker
I grew up near a small town in South Dakota. The only religions I was exposed to were various denominations of Christianity. My family and I occasionally attended a Lutheran church, encouraged by my mother, and I was eventually confirmed Lutheran. I did believe in God, but did not believe in all that "church stuff": singing, worshiping pictures of crosses and Jesus, and eating "the body and blood of Christ." It just did not make any sense to me.
For as long as I can remember, something was always missing. There was this hole in my heart, this great sadness and dark loneliness penetrating every cell of my body, mind, and soul. Nothing could fill that hole, and the pain would not go away. I turned to alcohol at a very early age to numb that deep, agonizing pain, but it was only temporary, and it always made me feel even worse after the numbness wore off.
My distance from my family and everyone else around me only increased as I grew older. I had so much disgust and hatred for myself, which caused me to be absolutely horrible to my parents. All I remember wanting was to escape — escape where I was and who I was. However, I found that no matter how hard I tried, I could not escape who I was. Therefore, I was determined to do what I could to escape where I was before I literally destroyed myself.
I became a slave to my looks. I was consumed by it all.
I dropped out of college and left South Dakota for Florida by myself when I was 19. Able to make a fresh start in an exciting new environment, I found a bit of happiness for a brief period of time. But it was only superficial. That pain and sadness, that hole in my heart, was still there.
I spent many years searching for something to heal myself. I turned to psychology, self-help books and tapes and exercise, all of which really did help me a great deal. I was able to gain some strength in order to go on with my life. I did get caught up in the Florida lifestyle though. My various jobs enabled me to gain some easy cash, so it left as fast as it came, thanks to a lot of shopping and partying. In order to keep up with everyone else, I got credit cards — a lot of credit cards — and found myself sinking deeper and deeper in debt, but not even caring since I was just living for the day. I was also caught up in my looks. It cost a lot of time and money to look good. I became a slave to my looks. I was consumed by it all: hairdresser, manicurist, gym, mall, etc. After all, I was how I looked, or so I thought. And I just knew I would be happy if everyone was looking at me, if I got a lot of attention. And I did get attention, but I hated it. It made me miserable. So what would make me happy? I was still searching.
I found love, and that made me happy for a little while. Then I began looking into religions, all types and kinds of religions. Interestingly enough, I discovered there to be some "universal truths" in many religions. It seemed the rest was different, but the essence was the same. My love for all of humanity and the peace in my heart increased greatly with my spiritual search and growth. I came to be most interested in "metaphysical studies," and some sort of Eastern-type meditation and yoga. I adhered mostly to these. However, I wanted more. I wanted someone to tell me exactly what to do and how to do it. I needed rules and structure. And I just could not get that as this particular field is very liberal, abstract, and free.
Eventually I went back to college, and that made me feel much better about myself. I developed a passion for international relations and after I learned the ugly truth about "American History" and "US Foreign Policy," I was horrified with all the injustice, racism, and oppression. It broke my heart. I was so saddened by the suffering in the world. I decided I must do something about it.
I was just too strong-headed to submit the way one must in order to be a Muslim.
I began networking with and educating local high school and college students about the injustice in the Middle East, and eventually I began organizing local activists to travel to Washington, DC, to protest the upcoming war in Iraq. During this process, I met an amazing man — a Muslim — who was doing this very same kind of work. I had never seen someone who had dedicated his life to the causes I cared so much for — justice and human rights. He had started his own organization, which I volunteered for so that I could learn from him and help in the struggle. As we worked together, he shared with me the stories of Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), the Companions, and the amazing civilization of Islam — the only instance of a just society on this planet. I was shocked to hear these stories, as I knew nothing about this history. I became enchanted with Islam and read all I could about it, eventually reading the Qur'an.
I found in Islam the truth I was searching for. Finally it all made sense. However, I realized I had so many misconceptions and stereotypes I was not even aware of. First of all, I was not keen on the women issue and did not yet understand why they dressed so differently. I said resolutely, "I could never dress like that," as I still had the mindset that "how I look is who I am." So if people could not see how I looked, then I would not even exist. Also, what about "the woman stays at home and just takes care of the kids and the household and listens to her husband"? This was too much for me! There was just no way that I could understand why a woman would stay at home. Who is she if she is not "out there" climbing her way to that glass ceiling? And why should she be so obedient to her husband?
I did find the beautiful answers to these questions, which are very logical and amazingly functional. You see, Islam is not just a religion. It is a complete way of life. In it, you have the guidance and the answers to even the smallest of details, like how to eat and sleep. It is amazing!
However, I still was not willing to commit to Islam. It seemed too tough for me; it was too much responsibility and I was just too strong-headed to submit the way one must in order to be a Muslim. Then one cool January night in 2003, I was on the bus ride back from another antiwar rally in Washington, DC, I was at a crossroads in my life. I hated my job and had recently left my husband as we had grown apart. I had had enough of organizing the antiwar people. I was 29 years old and had no idea what I would do with my life. I broke down and started crying. I said to myself, "What can I do? What can I do? I just want to be a good person and make the world a better place. But how? What should I do?" All of a sudden, the answer came to me: Be a Muslim. That's it! A blanket of comforting peace embraced me. I felt so calm and sure and full of joy. All of a sudden I had a purpose in life, a reason to exist.
Life is still life: It's not easy, but now I have a guidebook.
One week later, I said my Shahadah (testimony of faith) at a public groundbreaking for a new mosque. As soon as I said it, two rainbows appeared in the sky! Everyone who witnessed it was very touched and all the Muslim sisters came up to me afterwards hugging me. I was crying from so much joy, as were most of the people there, happy to have me in the Ummah (community of Muslims).
The next day, eager to show the world I was a Muslim, I went to a local Middle Eastern store where they sold beautiful hijabs (headscarves) and dresses appropriate for the required Muslim dress. I bought many dresses and scarves, and from that day forward, I dressed properly. Ahhhhh … free at last! I had broken the chains of fashion and physical enslavement enforced by a superficial society. Honestly, I felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I no longer felt the pressure to dress and look better than everyone else. I finally respected myself and no longer based my self-worth on the reactions and attention of others. While many looked at me strangely — some with pity, some with anger, and some with curiosity — I really did get so much respect like never before.
Al-hamdu lillah (all praise be to Allah), the wonderful man who introduced me to Islam married me exactly one month after I became Muslim. Since then we have continued our work together against injustice throughout the world. We have traveled throughout the Middle East and moved from America to Egypt to be with my husband's mother and to live in an "Islamic" environment. Al-hamdu lillah, I am blessed with a beautiful family, in addition to the larger family — the Ummah — I gained when I became a Muslim.
Life is still life: It's not easy, but now I have a guidebook, a structure, a foundation. My heart is complete. The sadness and loneliness are gone. I now feel I belong. I am somebody. And I am home, at least for now, in this millisecond we call dunya (worldly life), until I am in my final, eternal home, in the akhira (afterlife), in sha' Allah (if Allah wills), near to my beloved, the Creator and Lord of the Worlds, Allah, Glorified and Exalted is He.
(from: islamicinformation.net)
Thanks abg in ;)
Beauty And The East - How Sara Bokker Found Islam
By Sara Bokker
I grew up near a small town in South Dakota. The only religions I was exposed to were various denominations of Christianity. My family and I occasionally attended a Lutheran church, encouraged by my mother, and I was eventually confirmed Lutheran. I did believe in God, but did not believe in all that "church stuff": singing, worshiping pictures of crosses and Jesus, and eating "the body and blood of Christ." It just did not make any sense to me.
For as long as I can remember, something was always missing. There was this hole in my heart, this great sadness and dark loneliness penetrating every cell of my body, mind, and soul. Nothing could fill that hole, and the pain would not go away. I turned to alcohol at a very early age to numb that deep, agonizing pain, but it was only temporary, and it always made me feel even worse after the numbness wore off.
My distance from my family and everyone else around me only increased as I grew older. I had so much disgust and hatred for myself, which caused me to be absolutely horrible to my parents. All I remember wanting was to escape — escape where I was and who I was. However, I found that no matter how hard I tried, I could not escape who I was. Therefore, I was determined to do what I could to escape where I was before I literally destroyed myself.
I became a slave to my looks. I was consumed by it all.
I dropped out of college and left South Dakota for Florida by myself when I was 19. Able to make a fresh start in an exciting new environment, I found a bit of happiness for a brief period of time. But it was only superficial. That pain and sadness, that hole in my heart, was still there.
I spent many years searching for something to heal myself. I turned to psychology, self-help books and tapes and exercise, all of which really did help me a great deal. I was able to gain some strength in order to go on with my life. I did get caught up in the Florida lifestyle though. My various jobs enabled me to gain some easy cash, so it left as fast as it came, thanks to a lot of shopping and partying. In order to keep up with everyone else, I got credit cards — a lot of credit cards — and found myself sinking deeper and deeper in debt, but not even caring since I was just living for the day. I was also caught up in my looks. It cost a lot of time and money to look good. I became a slave to my looks. I was consumed by it all: hairdresser, manicurist, gym, mall, etc. After all, I was how I looked, or so I thought. And I just knew I would be happy if everyone was looking at me, if I got a lot of attention. And I did get attention, but I hated it. It made me miserable. So what would make me happy? I was still searching.
I found love, and that made me happy for a little while. Then I began looking into religions, all types and kinds of religions. Interestingly enough, I discovered there to be some "universal truths" in many religions. It seemed the rest was different, but the essence was the same. My love for all of humanity and the peace in my heart increased greatly with my spiritual search and growth. I came to be most interested in "metaphysical studies," and some sort of Eastern-type meditation and yoga. I adhered mostly to these. However, I wanted more. I wanted someone to tell me exactly what to do and how to do it. I needed rules and structure. And I just could not get that as this particular field is very liberal, abstract, and free.
Eventually I went back to college, and that made me feel much better about myself. I developed a passion for international relations and after I learned the ugly truth about "American History" and "US Foreign Policy," I was horrified with all the injustice, racism, and oppression. It broke my heart. I was so saddened by the suffering in the world. I decided I must do something about it.
I was just too strong-headed to submit the way one must in order to be a Muslim.
I began networking with and educating local high school and college students about the injustice in the Middle East, and eventually I began organizing local activists to travel to Washington, DC, to protest the upcoming war in Iraq. During this process, I met an amazing man — a Muslim — who was doing this very same kind of work. I had never seen someone who had dedicated his life to the causes I cared so much for — justice and human rights. He had started his own organization, which I volunteered for so that I could learn from him and help in the struggle. As we worked together, he shared with me the stories of Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), the Companions, and the amazing civilization of Islam — the only instance of a just society on this planet. I was shocked to hear these stories, as I knew nothing about this history. I became enchanted with Islam and read all I could about it, eventually reading the Qur'an.
I found in Islam the truth I was searching for. Finally it all made sense. However, I realized I had so many misconceptions and stereotypes I was not even aware of. First of all, I was not keen on the women issue and did not yet understand why they dressed so differently. I said resolutely, "I could never dress like that," as I still had the mindset that "how I look is who I am." So if people could not see how I looked, then I would not even exist. Also, what about "the woman stays at home and just takes care of the kids and the household and listens to her husband"? This was too much for me! There was just no way that I could understand why a woman would stay at home. Who is she if she is not "out there" climbing her way to that glass ceiling? And why should she be so obedient to her husband?
I did find the beautiful answers to these questions, which are very logical and amazingly functional. You see, Islam is not just a religion. It is a complete way of life. In it, you have the guidance and the answers to even the smallest of details, like how to eat and sleep. It is amazing!
However, I still was not willing to commit to Islam. It seemed too tough for me; it was too much responsibility and I was just too strong-headed to submit the way one must in order to be a Muslim. Then one cool January night in 2003, I was on the bus ride back from another antiwar rally in Washington, DC, I was at a crossroads in my life. I hated my job and had recently left my husband as we had grown apart. I had had enough of organizing the antiwar people. I was 29 years old and had no idea what I would do with my life. I broke down and started crying. I said to myself, "What can I do? What can I do? I just want to be a good person and make the world a better place. But how? What should I do?" All of a sudden, the answer came to me: Be a Muslim. That's it! A blanket of comforting peace embraced me. I felt so calm and sure and full of joy. All of a sudden I had a purpose in life, a reason to exist.
Life is still life: It's not easy, but now I have a guidebook.
One week later, I said my Shahadah (testimony of faith) at a public groundbreaking for a new mosque. As soon as I said it, two rainbows appeared in the sky! Everyone who witnessed it was very touched and all the Muslim sisters came up to me afterwards hugging me. I was crying from so much joy, as were most of the people there, happy to have me in the Ummah (community of Muslims).
The next day, eager to show the world I was a Muslim, I went to a local Middle Eastern store where they sold beautiful hijabs (headscarves) and dresses appropriate for the required Muslim dress. I bought many dresses and scarves, and from that day forward, I dressed properly. Ahhhhh … free at last! I had broken the chains of fashion and physical enslavement enforced by a superficial society. Honestly, I felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I no longer felt the pressure to dress and look better than everyone else. I finally respected myself and no longer based my self-worth on the reactions and attention of others. While many looked at me strangely — some with pity, some with anger, and some with curiosity — I really did get so much respect like never before.
Al-hamdu lillah (all praise be to Allah), the wonderful man who introduced me to Islam married me exactly one month after I became Muslim. Since then we have continued our work together against injustice throughout the world. We have traveled throughout the Middle East and moved from America to Egypt to be with my husband's mother and to live in an "Islamic" environment. Al-hamdu lillah, I am blessed with a beautiful family, in addition to the larger family — the Ummah — I gained when I became a Muslim.
Life is still life: It's not easy, but now I have a guidebook, a structure, a foundation. My heart is complete. The sadness and loneliness are gone. I now feel I belong. I am somebody. And I am home, at least for now, in this millisecond we call dunya (worldly life), until I am in my final, eternal home, in the akhira (afterlife), in sha' Allah (if Allah wills), near to my beloved, the Creator and Lord of the Worlds, Allah, Glorified and Exalted is He.
(from: islamicinformation.net)
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Democracy: what is it ? where does it start?
The idea of democracy is said has started during the Greeks in the six century BC. It derives from 2 base Greek words which are 'demo' means the people and 'kratein' means rule by the people. So just looking briefly to the meaning, i believe that all of us should have sort of understanding of what it could mean.
The Greek ruled their territories under the system of democracy. dividing their civilizations into small city-states and all the men voted on all issues of government.
a well-known quotation that well represents democracy is 'a government of the people, by the people, for the people'
This is kind of some history lies behind the introduction of democracy.
i Would say mahathir's new post is one of the best way to explain the good and bad about democracy and of course he's referring his idea to what is currently facing by malaysia.
http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/2010/03/democracy.html
read this, i suggest to you
well maybe this is gud for you too ;)
Its thursday
I called it a day
i'm strong! well, about 2 weeks ago, we had to write an essay about 1200 words. enough to say that i was really putting lots of effort and attention to the essay. just now, i've just received my mark. believe it or not, i only got 65 out of 100. i heard in my class, average of us only get around 70-75. but knowing the fact that i only get 65 is really really disappointing.
well i know that i'm seriously not a good writer ;) as well as i'm not a fast learner but at least please give me something more than that..
listening to her advices, i knew that it was my problem and i could understand the reasons she gave me such a mark :(
( and i know that tonight will be a night to recover, but i'm not going to do something stupid as to waste my precious time )
have to start revising tutes week 3 and 4 for contractual liability. tomorrow i have discussions.
wish me luck ;)
i'll see ya then. bye
i'm strong! well, about 2 weeks ago, we had to write an essay about 1200 words. enough to say that i was really putting lots of effort and attention to the essay. just now, i've just received my mark. believe it or not, i only got 65 out of 100. i heard in my class, average of us only get around 70-75. but knowing the fact that i only get 65 is really really disappointing.
well i know that i'm seriously not a good writer ;) as well as i'm not a fast learner but at least please give me something more than that..
listening to her advices, i knew that it was my problem and i could understand the reasons she gave me such a mark :(
( and i know that tonight will be a night to recover, but i'm not going to do something stupid as to waste my precious time )
have to start revising tutes week 3 and 4 for contractual liability. tomorrow i have discussions.
wish me luck ;)
i'll see ya then. bye
A new post ;)
Assalamualaikum,
I will say gud morning to everyone though some of us may be in evening, or at night or in whatever the time is.
Previously i just follow people's blog (letting to know that my hobby is reading good stuffs from blogs), but now i'll be start writing my own posts. which i presume to be less quality than yours because .. hey, i'm new here okay!
well, i just want to write something and tell stories that u and me can share, talk about and learn from. ;)
I'm excited!
c ya then
I will say gud morning to everyone though some of us may be in evening, or at night or in whatever the time is.
Previously i just follow people's blog (letting to know that my hobby is reading good stuffs from blogs), but now i'll be start writing my own posts. which i presume to be less quality than yours because .. hey, i'm new here okay!
well, i just want to write something and tell stories that u and me can share, talk about and learn from. ;)
I'm excited!
c ya then
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